I did not have wine yesterday. Big deal. Big. Big deal. I still slept until 9:30, but it’s a start. The sun came out today and so I took the dog for a two-mile walk/run. Back in the day, when I was employed full-time, I worked out every day: intense cardio and weight training, even running a half-marathon.
Today, not so much.
The walk/run route from the house is uphill on the way out, and downhill on the way home. Having programmed my running app to one-minute-walk/one-minute-run intervals, I found I was breathing too hard on the uphill and so unable to finish out the one-minute-run portions. Basically, I walked a lot. My brain kept saying, this is so, so pathetic. Why are you even bothering?
On the way home (ie. on the downhill) I was able to sustain the one-minute-run segments. Then my brain said, Hey, this isn’t so bad after all.
It’s a start, right?
The road back, heck, the road to anywhere begins with a single step. Just do something, anything, to break the inertia. And so perhaps this is where my new journey begins.
I also made a batch of butternut squash soup from scratch. Simply pile the following list of ingredients into a large stove-top pot, simmer for an hour or so, and then blend with an immersion or standup blender:
- 3 tbsp, olive oil, or coconut oil, or other fat of choice
- 1 large butternut squash, peeled and diced
- 3 carrots, diced
- 1/2 medium onion, roughly chopped
- 2 to 3 cups chicken broth (no salt if possible)
- 2 green apples, peeled and diced
- 1 tbsp cinnamon
- 2 bay leaves
- 1/8 tsp ground sage
- 1/8 tsp nutmeg
- Sea salt and pepper, to taste
Despite being dairy free, this soup is creamy and comforting and wonderful to heat up for a quick afternoon warming fix. Healthy. Not quite vegetarian, but it’s also a start.
Hey, WAIT a second, if you think about, I’m already practicing some of the goals I posted two days ago, and all it took was deciding to take a small step, to not open a bottle of wine during the Witching Hour—the Witching Hour is the daily expanse of time between 4pm and 6pm, (also, depending on the day, like a Friday or Saturday, the Witching Hour has been known to reach even further, from 3:30pm until 7pm).
Resisting the Witching Hour, fighting back against its demonic urges, can be incredibly difficult. Yesterday, there were many moments when I wanted to say, Fuck it, just open a bottle, especially when cooking… but somehow, miraculously, I persevered and was able to resist, sometimes by speaking out-loud to myself, not today.
In addition to cooking soup, not opening a bottle of wine, and going for a 2 mile run/mostly-walk, I also listened to the audiobook, Mindfulness for Beginners by Jon Kabat-Zin.
Hot damn. That’s 3 of the 6 stated goals. Actually, 4 of the 6. Because I also successfully did not turn on the TV once yesterday, and made an honest effort to stay away from social media.
In other news, I have an interview scheduled for Monday. It’s a phone interview. It’s a start. There may be life out there yet.
To break the cycle of inertia, simply stand up and do something. Walk out the door and go for a walk, write a blog post, cook some soup.
Surprising how powerful a single simple action can be.