Tonight over the phone JC said, I was missing you today. Something gurgled in my heart. Something forgotten.
Like what about me?
Just hanging out with you.
It’s been so long since I’ve heard romantic words, genuine intimate words about how I’m loved and why. I didn’t exactly get that tonight but it was close. I often wonder why everything is so perfunctory between us now. I’d given up on anything more, really. Hearing him speak that way made the heart skip but also sink in remembering something that is lost, maybe lost for good. I do not know. He leaves tomorrow for an 8 day voyage. 8 days of radio silence. 10 tens before my birthday.